Why is it so hard to understand you?

Why do you make things so hard to understand?
Why do you make things difficult?
Why do you stay stagnant?
Why did you say and do things to me that made me feel different?
Why did you make it seem like there was something there in the first place?
Why are you doing this to me again?
Why the hell am I even turning my mind inside out over you?

Because I used to think it was worth twisting and turning over you.
Because no one's ever really made me feel this way.
Because I am who I am.
And you were part of the process that has molded me.

That's why its so hard for me to understand.
Understand why the feelings I once had for you are now gone.