Keep me guessing.

Finding the right words to say is never easy,
especially with you.

I could have a whole speech ready,
but my brain just seems to shut down when the moment of truth arrives.

I could be calm and cool one second,
but jumpy and nervous the next.

Why am I like that now?

I could have had a written down and posted a long post.
Probably with lots of thought provoking stuff in it. (or what others may call my posts: emo)
There comes a point in time,
where you just figure,
there's nothing much to brood over.
Or rather, there's not much reason to brood over at all.

Why you may ask?



Because I think you just might have taken that reason away.

25 random things about -Bk-

Got tagged by Cal a.k.a. Saruchan.
And now I have to write 25 random things about myself.
Either that or risk getting an earful from the three amigos.

Well, here goes.

1. I play the piano. And the violin. And the drums. Wheeee.

2. I love cooking!
3. I love dogs!
4. I can write stuff that invokes deep thought! (or at least invokes deep thought in me...)
5. I have no idea how many moles are on my face. (but if you connect the dots in a certain way, you get a fish)
6. I turn off the alarm when it rings at 5.45 a.m. and I lay in bed counting my heartbeats as I'm too lazy to wake up.
7. I'm not working out enough. (I have to stick to my NY's resolution)
8. I'm a clean freak. (sometimes at least)
9. I have three brothers. (unfortunately)
10. I'm a 2nd-tier leader in my youth cell, Christ Clan
11. I'm a drummer in my church XD
12. I'm left-handed but I play badminton with my right hand.
13. I was born on friday the 13th and for some apparent reason this year my birthday is on friday the 13th again. (This has not happened since the day I was born)
14. I am born six years apart from my older brother and six years apart from my younger brother.
15. My right shoulder pops for some reason when I pull back my arm.
16. I have a scar at the back of my head. (want to know more? ask me!)
17. I once scraped both knees whilst cycling. (the right on the first day, the left on the next)
18. I hate anything that has to do with complex calculations.
19. I'm a pure arts stream student. (And lovin it!)
20. I'm known as panderan amongst my cina boy gang. (you don't wanna know)
21. I have the tendency to make certain descisions without thinking about them 100% thoroughly. (but that's changing lol)
22. I have once-in-a-while-short-term-memory-loss
23. I'm beginning to feel a little old for some weird reason.
24. I can't wait to get out of school but yet at the same time somehow I don't want it to end.
25. The reason I'm called -Bk- sometimes is because in my church there's another person who shares the same name as I do. (My initials sound better than BL (Brandon Lau)

So! I made it to the end of this post. Let's see, I have to tag a few people huh,
not that many to tag ar.....haiz, I'll make due.

I tag, Shayne, Fara, Yihling, V-ki, Eshton, Suzen, Ming Chal (that makes two tags you duck)


Meeting up tommorow with another cell leader to discuss RHN.

-Bk-

Ashes to ash, dust to dust.

Remind me not to participate in public speaking.
Especially when impromptu speeches are given,
and you have 5 minutes to prep,
and the topic's homework.
Shyts.

Oh well at least I tried. Even though my impromptu speech wasn't even 5 minutes.
Oh what the heck.
Past two days have been a little stoned.
Internet was down for both those days.
Let's start with monday.

After school went for lunch at malik maju with Ming Chal and went around DU taking photos for moral project.
After malik maju we went back to the playground near Michael Choo's house.
Took some photos there, got our hands dirty.
Sat on the swings and chit chatted for a while. Or in this case he quacked for a bit. (inside joke)
Sadly there were no recycling bins around that playground.
So decided to walk back to uptown and go to housing area near the mosque.
Whilst we were walking the strangest thing happened.
We were both emo-ing (seeing as that's one of the few things you can do with MC)
and while we were walking my mind seemed to wander off for some apparent reason,
and suddenly a loud high-pitched noise came from behind.
Turns out I came pretty damn close to being hit by a red myvi.
Cal, Wernie, Kath, Ming, you all should know this is not the first time I had a near miss with a Malaysian made car.
Ming Chal explained that he saw the car coming and his brain told his arms to reach out and pull me back, but his arms didn't move. (ming chal you're such a reliable duck)
Its not easy walking around uptown when you've got an extra 6 kgs on your back. Or was it more? I blame the invention of schoolbooks.
By the time we got near the mosque, the clouds were getting pretty dark.
So we guessed we should pick up the pace. And we did.
We were almost at the park, when suddenly, Wern called Ming Chal and I was taking pictures of kittens in a house.
But a really strange thing happened.
We heard some screams coming from further up the road.
Then I saw some figure of a woman struggling in front of her car.
I shouted at Ming Chal and we started running towards her.
A snatch theft had taken place.
I asked Ming Chal whether he had anything ready to fend of that moth**%#@^$!
But he was more worried about being mugged.
By the time we got there, the thief had run off and the woman who apparently was some old aunty in her 50's was looking pretty shocked whilst talking to some people who lived nearby.
We went to check up on her but all she did was scold us for not coming earlier.
Wtf =.=
Welcome to Malaysia. You check up on someone and all they do is scold you.
We walked off and then it started raining. Shyts.
Went to McD's for ice-cream.
Then Cal and Wernie showed up.
Cal looked like he had just gone through labour.
Went to a nearby coffee shop in the pouring rain.
Chilled there for a while, then Ming Chal had to go.
I left next because I had to go home and beat the jam (I sooooo was not ditching you guys...) :P
Walked out near the mosque.
And guess what.
The 99 was just arriving and I tried to get the driver's attention but whaddya know?
Welcome to Malaysia.
Drove off.
Then 88 came.
I had to run for my life. Well not really, but considering the weight I was carrying I could've run in sports day XD.
Missed the 88.
And it was pouring.
Had to walk from the bus back to the bus stop opposite Malik Maju in the pouring rain.
Oh yeah, did I mention my phone got confiscated that day?
yep. Anyways rode on the bus but by the time I got to the petronas near home, it was pouring even harder. =.=
No phone to call mom to pick me up.
Had to walk back the same distance it takes for you to walk from the hospital near our school to Malik Maju.
No umbrella.
I once did say I wanted to get a chance to walk under the rain. lol.
No chance to update that day as the internet was down.

And then came the next day, which was a little stoned.
Somehow I can't remember much of what happened before public speaking at the library.
Oh yeah...had to do BM project.
Waited till 10.30 p.m. to go over to Wei Lun's house to finish the project.
And when I got there, he was having fun in a group convo with the usual cina boy gang including Wern.
Today school was tiring.
But fun.
Lol, Desmond you sure know how to make a presentation in English don't you?
Went home, still tired and just chilled around.
And now I'm blogging after coming back from checking out my parent's new investment.
An apartment in the new Casa Indah.




Another random question for those of you who have gone for Red Hot Nite before,
would you go again?
And for thos of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, there's this event that my youth cell, ChristClan has been having for two years running.
Its heaps of fun but it used to be held near V-day.
This year we're mixing things up a bit.
Because we're having this event near April Fool's and just to tease you guys a bit,
here's the theme for this year.



-Fools for Love-

-Bk-

v/k: yes I am lol. Now all you need to do is come online more often.

Till next time,
au revoir

A quick one.

Public speaking's this week.
Shyt.

Nevermind la just use some of my old blog posts.



or....


I can use this. (it has to be an 8 minute speech. What the heck am I going to go on talking about for 8 minutes?)

Fear.

What is fear? Fear is an emotional response to threats and danger. It is a basic survival mechanism in humas. At least that what wikipedia says about it. My definition of fear, is that cold churning feeling you get in your gut when you're faced with things that basically scare or spook you. Its that feeling where all the hairs behind your neck begin to stand on end. But ever wonder why God created us with this emotion? I mean, we seriously would be so much better off without it don't you think? For instance, we would not fear heights, other people, walking down a dark alley at night alone, and for the guys, we definetly would not fear going up to girls. There's so many things we can accomplish just by taking away this one emotion - fear.

But just like coin has two sides, so does every story.

Life without fear isn't a bed of roses, trust me. We'd just walk across a wide road during rush hour traffic and become roadkill because we don't fear death, or cars speeding at breaknecking speeds. We'd walk down dark alleys and get mugged or worse because we don't fear getting mugged or worse. We wouldn't fear the law and punishment. And that would lead to a lot of imprisonments, executions, you get the idea. And worst of all, we wouldn' fear God. That by far is the biggest mistake any one man could make.

But then again, we can't live life with too much fear. Imagine this, you'd be wetting your pants because your too afraid of stepping outside your house for fear of being bitten by mosquitoes or getting hit by the rain. So if you think about it again, we can't live without fear, but at the same time we can't live with too much of it.

Its natural that we as humans fear some things more than others. Just make sure you fear what you fear for the right reasons. One of the most common fears amongst people is fear of the dark.
But if you just take a moment to think about it, we don't really fear the dark. No we don't. We fear what's in the dark. There are plenty of fears which are totally normal in humans. But there are some that are downright silly. Ever heard of Algophobia? Its the fear of chickens. Try to imagine one of your friends turning white with fear the second you bring him to KFC.

In retrospect, there are some things we should fear, other things that we need not fear. But at the same time there are also fears we have to conquer. Fears that stop you from accomplishing important goals. Fears that hold you back from your full and true potential. Once you overcome them, you become, well, something else. You become not someone who is devoid of fear, you become someone who is aware of what fear truly is. You become refined.

To sum it up, from my point of view, fear's two things. Its an obstacle, but at the same time its a warning line which clearly says: "do not cross"

-Bk-