Transitioning.

Its almost never easy.

Change.

Its something we as humans get used to instantly.

Slowly but surely,
I begin to see.

The change in me.

The change in everything around me.

Finding the answers to some questions is never easy.

So I go in search of them.

Choice is good.

But why is it so hard to choose sometimes?

Some things, you can find easily.
Others, take a lifetime to find.

Well if that's what it takes.
Fine.

Let me go in search again.
Let me have no rest till I find her.
Let me have no solace till I find her.

Let me go in search of that one illusive person.

The one.

Seems like everyone's leaving.

School was so damn stoned today =.=

5 Keledang threw a farewell party for Josephine.

Its a little weird, thinking about it.
I mean, I don't really know Josephine that well,
even though I was in a band with her before and all.
But judging from what everyone else is saying about how much they're going to miss her and stuff,
it got me thinking.
Again.

I'm finding it hard to imagine what life would be like without certain key people.
I'm already experiencing what its like without some people.
Youth cell in church feels a little smaller now that Nicholas left.
(he's the one on the left)

Come to think of it, I never really blog about what's happening in church huh.
(another day, another post.)

I'm still trying to imagine what life would be like without my foul mouthed chinese educated friends in class.
What life would be like without Calvin and his constant abuses.
Without Chin Wern's um.....(enter something at your own discretion)
With out Katherine's um....(dunno what to say =.=)

Without anyone to call a mofo =D
Yes Zen, that means you.

Without the two fakais. (you know who you are)

Without Sherwin.
Basically to sum it up without my Tofus.

If Eric left, I'd have nothing left to say.

These people mean something to me.

Funny huh?

How we rely on people so much.

Purpose.

I'm doing something for the papan kenyataan in my class for English.
I'm most likely going to put the main part of this post up.
Tell me what you think.

Here goes.

We all live for one thing and one thing only.
Purpose.
Without it, life's futile.
An empty shell.
Without purpose, we'll wake up every morning and fall asleep every night and think nothing of our lives.
Most people I know just live for the sake of living.
They don't choose to question why they're put where they are,
Why they do what they do,
They just live.
Maybe I should be like them, and leave all this fuss behind.

Nah.

They say ignorance is bliss.
Well, then I say introduce a little chaos.

But here comes the ironic part.
Here I am, the writer, going on and on about living with purpose,
Yet I'm not even sure what mine is.
But I will never, ever, be able to find out what my purpose is if I just sit here and wait.
I'm going to keep searching.
What about you?

I'm out of words.

If in any way I hurt you,
I'm sorry.

If in any way I wasted your time somehow,
I'm sorry.

If I could've done more but didn't,
forgive me.

I just want you to know, everything I said, when I said it,
I meant it.
Every word.
Maybe we were destined to go our separate ways.
Maybe everything that we wanted just wasn't meant to be.

But with everything said and done,
all I want to say is,

Thank you.

You made life seem brighter.
Like there was still something worth waking up everyday for.

So once again,
Thanks.
For everything.