25 random things about -Bk-

Got tagged by Cal a.k.a. Saruchan.
And now I have to write 25 random things about myself.
Either that or risk getting an earful from the three amigos.

Well, here goes.

1. I play the piano. And the violin. And the drums. Wheeee.

2. I love cooking!
3. I love dogs!
4. I can write stuff that invokes deep thought! (or at least invokes deep thought in me...)
5. I have no idea how many moles are on my face. (but if you connect the dots in a certain way, you get a fish)
6. I turn off the alarm when it rings at 5.45 a.m. and I lay in bed counting my heartbeats as I'm too lazy to wake up.
7. I'm not working out enough. (I have to stick to my NY's resolution)
8. I'm a clean freak. (sometimes at least)
9. I have three brothers. (unfortunately)
10. I'm a 2nd-tier leader in my youth cell, Christ Clan
11. I'm a drummer in my church XD
12. I'm left-handed but I play badminton with my right hand.
13. I was born on friday the 13th and for some apparent reason this year my birthday is on friday the 13th again. (This has not happened since the day I was born)
14. I am born six years apart from my older brother and six years apart from my younger brother.
15. My right shoulder pops for some reason when I pull back my arm.
16. I have a scar at the back of my head. (want to know more? ask me!)
17. I once scraped both knees whilst cycling. (the right on the first day, the left on the next)
18. I hate anything that has to do with complex calculations.
19. I'm a pure arts stream student. (And lovin it!)
20. I'm known as panderan amongst my cina boy gang. (you don't wanna know)
21. I have the tendency to make certain descisions without thinking about them 100% thoroughly. (but that's changing lol)
22. I have once-in-a-while-short-term-memory-loss
23. I'm beginning to feel a little old for some weird reason.
24. I can't wait to get out of school but yet at the same time somehow I don't want it to end.
25. The reason I'm called -Bk- sometimes is because in my church there's another person who shares the same name as I do. (My initials sound better than BL (Brandon Lau)

So! I made it to the end of this post. Let's see, I have to tag a few people huh,
not that many to tag ar.....haiz, I'll make due.

I tag, Shayne, Fara, Yihling, V-ki, Eshton, Suzen, Ming Chal (that makes two tags you duck)


Meeting up tommorow with another cell leader to discuss RHN.

-Bk-

Ashes to ash, dust to dust.

Remind me not to participate in public speaking.
Especially when impromptu speeches are given,
and you have 5 minutes to prep,
and the topic's homework.
Shyts.

Oh well at least I tried. Even though my impromptu speech wasn't even 5 minutes.
Oh what the heck.
Past two days have been a little stoned.
Internet was down for both those days.
Let's start with monday.

After school went for lunch at malik maju with Ming Chal and went around DU taking photos for moral project.
After malik maju we went back to the playground near Michael Choo's house.
Took some photos there, got our hands dirty.
Sat on the swings and chit chatted for a while. Or in this case he quacked for a bit. (inside joke)
Sadly there were no recycling bins around that playground.
So decided to walk back to uptown and go to housing area near the mosque.
Whilst we were walking the strangest thing happened.
We were both emo-ing (seeing as that's one of the few things you can do with MC)
and while we were walking my mind seemed to wander off for some apparent reason,
and suddenly a loud high-pitched noise came from behind.
Turns out I came pretty damn close to being hit by a red myvi.
Cal, Wernie, Kath, Ming, you all should know this is not the first time I had a near miss with a Malaysian made car.
Ming Chal explained that he saw the car coming and his brain told his arms to reach out and pull me back, but his arms didn't move. (ming chal you're such a reliable duck)
Its not easy walking around uptown when you've got an extra 6 kgs on your back. Or was it more? I blame the invention of schoolbooks.
By the time we got near the mosque, the clouds were getting pretty dark.
So we guessed we should pick up the pace. And we did.
We were almost at the park, when suddenly, Wern called Ming Chal and I was taking pictures of kittens in a house.
But a really strange thing happened.
We heard some screams coming from further up the road.
Then I saw some figure of a woman struggling in front of her car.
I shouted at Ming Chal and we started running towards her.
A snatch theft had taken place.
I asked Ming Chal whether he had anything ready to fend of that moth**%#@^$!
But he was more worried about being mugged.
By the time we got there, the thief had run off and the woman who apparently was some old aunty in her 50's was looking pretty shocked whilst talking to some people who lived nearby.
We went to check up on her but all she did was scold us for not coming earlier.
Wtf =.=
Welcome to Malaysia. You check up on someone and all they do is scold you.
We walked off and then it started raining. Shyts.
Went to McD's for ice-cream.
Then Cal and Wernie showed up.
Cal looked like he had just gone through labour.
Went to a nearby coffee shop in the pouring rain.
Chilled there for a while, then Ming Chal had to go.
I left next because I had to go home and beat the jam (I sooooo was not ditching you guys...) :P
Walked out near the mosque.
And guess what.
The 99 was just arriving and I tried to get the driver's attention but whaddya know?
Welcome to Malaysia.
Drove off.
Then 88 came.
I had to run for my life. Well not really, but considering the weight I was carrying I could've run in sports day XD.
Missed the 88.
And it was pouring.
Had to walk from the bus back to the bus stop opposite Malik Maju in the pouring rain.
Oh yeah, did I mention my phone got confiscated that day?
yep. Anyways rode on the bus but by the time I got to the petronas near home, it was pouring even harder. =.=
No phone to call mom to pick me up.
Had to walk back the same distance it takes for you to walk from the hospital near our school to Malik Maju.
No umbrella.
I once did say I wanted to get a chance to walk under the rain. lol.
No chance to update that day as the internet was down.

And then came the next day, which was a little stoned.
Somehow I can't remember much of what happened before public speaking at the library.
Oh yeah...had to do BM project.
Waited till 10.30 p.m. to go over to Wei Lun's house to finish the project.
And when I got there, he was having fun in a group convo with the usual cina boy gang including Wern.
Today school was tiring.
But fun.
Lol, Desmond you sure know how to make a presentation in English don't you?
Went home, still tired and just chilled around.
And now I'm blogging after coming back from checking out my parent's new investment.
An apartment in the new Casa Indah.




Another random question for those of you who have gone for Red Hot Nite before,
would you go again?
And for thos of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, there's this event that my youth cell, ChristClan has been having for two years running.
Its heaps of fun but it used to be held near V-day.
This year we're mixing things up a bit.
Because we're having this event near April Fool's and just to tease you guys a bit,
here's the theme for this year.



-Fools for Love-

-Bk-

v/k: yes I am lol. Now all you need to do is come online more often.

Till next time,
au revoir

A quick one.

Public speaking's this week.
Shyt.

Nevermind la just use some of my old blog posts.



or....


I can use this. (it has to be an 8 minute speech. What the heck am I going to go on talking about for 8 minutes?)

Fear.

What is fear? Fear is an emotional response to threats and danger. It is a basic survival mechanism in humas. At least that what wikipedia says about it. My definition of fear, is that cold churning feeling you get in your gut when you're faced with things that basically scare or spook you. Its that feeling where all the hairs behind your neck begin to stand on end. But ever wonder why God created us with this emotion? I mean, we seriously would be so much better off without it don't you think? For instance, we would not fear heights, other people, walking down a dark alley at night alone, and for the guys, we definetly would not fear going up to girls. There's so many things we can accomplish just by taking away this one emotion - fear.

But just like coin has two sides, so does every story.

Life without fear isn't a bed of roses, trust me. We'd just walk across a wide road during rush hour traffic and become roadkill because we don't fear death, or cars speeding at breaknecking speeds. We'd walk down dark alleys and get mugged or worse because we don't fear getting mugged or worse. We wouldn't fear the law and punishment. And that would lead to a lot of imprisonments, executions, you get the idea. And worst of all, we wouldn' fear God. That by far is the biggest mistake any one man could make.

But then again, we can't live life with too much fear. Imagine this, you'd be wetting your pants because your too afraid of stepping outside your house for fear of being bitten by mosquitoes or getting hit by the rain. So if you think about it again, we can't live without fear, but at the same time we can't live with too much of it.

Its natural that we as humans fear some things more than others. Just make sure you fear what you fear for the right reasons. One of the most common fears amongst people is fear of the dark.
But if you just take a moment to think about it, we don't really fear the dark. No we don't. We fear what's in the dark. There are plenty of fears which are totally normal in humans. But there are some that are downright silly. Ever heard of Algophobia? Its the fear of chickens. Try to imagine one of your friends turning white with fear the second you bring him to KFC.

In retrospect, there are some things we should fear, other things that we need not fear. But at the same time there are also fears we have to conquer. Fears that stop you from accomplishing important goals. Fears that hold you back from your full and true potential. Once you overcome them, you become, well, something else. You become not someone who is devoid of fear, you become someone who is aware of what fear truly is. You become refined.

To sum it up, from my point of view, fear's two things. Its an obstacle, but at the same time its a warning line which clearly says: "do not cross"

-Bk-

Oh this is B.S.

As if having a stupid maid wasn't bad enough.
As if the running away of that stupid maid wasn't bad enough.
As if doing 1/2 the housework wasn't bad enough.

Now we're getting another stupid maid.

I'll give her two months.
Three tops.
Before she bends and breaks over the amount of maintenance needed over a house of this size.
Especially because of the a-hole living on the other side of my bathroom.

On a lighter note,
I think I put on a few pounds.
Have to start working out again and stick to my new year's resolutions.
And merentas desa's coming up.
Gotta start training for that.

Got a haircut today.
It took 15 mins.
But I had to wait for 45 mins for my mom's hair to get done.
Personal note to self:
Make sure the next time you get your hair cut, get it cut with your brother, not your mother.

Been visiting some blogs lately.
Some are really dead....
Either that or the people rarely come online to update...=.=
Especially one person......lol dam long she never update.
So if you're reading this and still don't know its you,
something's gotta give.

UPDATE YOUR BLOG LA V-KI!!!!!

Of cakes, candles, and emoness....

Today was....
A little boring I admit,
and I know it's a little late to post this up,
but....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO WEIN!!!!! (belated)
(soooooorry its the only decent picture I had of you :P)

Brought mom's chocolate cake to school today for him.
Remind me to prepare for people's birthday surprises in advance.
Had trouble lighting the candle in the canteen.
But still brought it for him. :D

Had mod math tuition today.
Anyone interested in joining? The teacher's pretty damn good and its at my house.
So far its just me and my friend Wei Lun and its RM150 for 2 people.
But if we add one more person to the group its rm100.
If two more people not sure, but I'll have to check with the teacher.
If anyone's interested, contact me here at the blog by leaving a comment or something.

Till the next post,
au revoir, readers.






Why does it seem so simple yet so hard with you?
Why does it seem like nothing else makes sense but you?
Why does it seem like I can't keep a straight face around you?
Why do I find it so hard to even utter one word to you?
Why does it seem like I'm losing my mind over you?


The answer's simple.


Because you're you.

For the emperor!!!!!

Dawn of War II is going to be released tommorow 0.0

Went to Curve today with two brothers and Cher Haow after lunch and grocery shopping at Giant to check out the life-size Space Marine figure.

Could've had more detail though.
But whoever pre-ordered stands a chance to win one of two of these figures.
The chances of winning one of these big guys is 1 - 250.
Pretty okay odds huh?
But ever wonder what someone would do with it if they won it?

The rest of the day was damn stoned...
Oh and I just found out.


PURPLE HOUSE WON MARCHING!!!!


Kudos to the other houses for their effort but too bad.
Better luck next year.


Amidst all the confusion,
all the uncertainties,
all the disarranged priorities,
all the hardships,
all the brokenness,
lies a boy's heart.
Begging you to do only one thing.

Find it.

Ten Hutt!

Finally got the room cleaned. I had no idea there was so much stuff in such a small room.For those of you who've been in my room before this, it definetly looks cleaner now ocmpared to the last time.

My computer area!!!


Oh and to those who are going for Sports Day tommorow, good luck to you all in whatever event you're participating in.
I was too lazy to participate this year.
Whatsmore I know next to nobody in Blue House.
Well, at least nobody I hang out with.
Why couldn't I have gone to Green or Purple???
Haiz. Blame DU.
Anyways, to all the marchers who're reading this,
Hormat. lol.
Since no one from Blue house reads this blog (that way I won't be called traitor)
GO PURPLE HOUSE!!!



Who knew fate could be so cruel yet so full of bliss?

Finally got the laptop running again...

Somehow, by grace from up above, my laptop's running again!
So I wasted no time in updating on it.
Chin Wern's going to hate me for part of this post but I don't care.
Cos that part of the post makes me happy!!!
Only Duck, Cal, and Kath and the cina boys (if you're actually reading this)
would understand why.
:D

Mom had a turkey in the freezer so she decided we have a family dinner.
It was like christmas all over again (sniff)
Christmas in 08 wasn't all that memorable as the turkey we ate was not that good.
It had one obvious flaw. It tasted like chicken.

Anyways this dinner was nice.
Haven't had good western in quite a while.

Complete with gravy!!!

Yum.

My mom was giving me that "what the heck are you doing" stare when I was taking photos of the food.

Oh, and Cuddles has to wear a cone now.
Take a wild guess why.




I'm not going to make another mistake.
No not this time.

What a day.

School was.
For lack of a better word, boring.
Accounts was fun though.
Hard to believe don't you think?
A few years ago everyone dreaded the sight of Pn. Chong.
Me included.
Now she's one of me and my class' favourite teachers.

Was a little distracted during Acc though.
The rest of the day was spent stoning or finishing homework.
Except Moral lesson.
Mother****ing christmas came early this year.
Wernie, Cal, Kath, Ming, if you're reading this you guys know what I'm talking about.

Spent some time at Malik Maju with Cher Haow and the Chimneys.
Lol SMR Damansara Utama. (inside joke)
Till about 3 then me and Cher Haow left for my house.

And guess what?
We wrote a song.
Using one of my blog posts.
If you can guess which one, um, I'll....
uh.....let you help me edit the song!

Veli the tired now.
And there's still housework to do.

Till the next update,
au revoir.




When in crisis, seek solutions.
When in pain, seek remedies.
When in questioning, seek wisdom.
When in weakness, seek strength.
When in confusion, seek God.
When in loneliness, seek love.

I jumped.

I fell.
But I'm still falling.

It all depends how I land now.

Its funny don't you think?
How a certain day in a year, a rose, a few nervous words
can make or break a person's day.

Sure it took time.
Sure it took effort.
Sure it took lots of convincing myself.

And it sure as heck took a lot of guts.

But it was worth it.

I would've hated myself if I didn't do it.

But I did.

I'll never know what the future holds,

But I guess we'll just have to let time tell huh?

Point in case is,
there's not much I'm at liberty to myself to say.

So Happy Valentine's.
:)

Just a quick one.

This blog needs a makeover.

And my room needs cleaning.

Transitioning.

Its almost never easy.

Change.

Its something we as humans get used to instantly.

Slowly but surely,
I begin to see.

The change in me.

The change in everything around me.

Finding the answers to some questions is never easy.

So I go in search of them.

Choice is good.

But why is it so hard to choose sometimes?

Some things, you can find easily.
Others, take a lifetime to find.

Well if that's what it takes.
Fine.

Let me go in search again.
Let me have no rest till I find her.
Let me have no solace till I find her.

Let me go in search of that one illusive person.

The one.

Seems like everyone's leaving.

School was so damn stoned today =.=

5 Keledang threw a farewell party for Josephine.

Its a little weird, thinking about it.
I mean, I don't really know Josephine that well,
even though I was in a band with her before and all.
But judging from what everyone else is saying about how much they're going to miss her and stuff,
it got me thinking.
Again.

I'm finding it hard to imagine what life would be like without certain key people.
I'm already experiencing what its like without some people.
Youth cell in church feels a little smaller now that Nicholas left.
(he's the one on the left)

Come to think of it, I never really blog about what's happening in church huh.
(another day, another post.)

I'm still trying to imagine what life would be like without my foul mouthed chinese educated friends in class.
What life would be like without Calvin and his constant abuses.
Without Chin Wern's um.....(enter something at your own discretion)
With out Katherine's um....(dunno what to say =.=)

Without anyone to call a mofo =D
Yes Zen, that means you.

Without the two fakais. (you know who you are)

Without Sherwin.
Basically to sum it up without my Tofus.

If Eric left, I'd have nothing left to say.

These people mean something to me.

Funny huh?

How we rely on people so much.

Purpose.

I'm doing something for the papan kenyataan in my class for English.
I'm most likely going to put the main part of this post up.
Tell me what you think.

Here goes.

We all live for one thing and one thing only.
Purpose.
Without it, life's futile.
An empty shell.
Without purpose, we'll wake up every morning and fall asleep every night and think nothing of our lives.
Most people I know just live for the sake of living.
They don't choose to question why they're put where they are,
Why they do what they do,
They just live.
Maybe I should be like them, and leave all this fuss behind.

Nah.

They say ignorance is bliss.
Well, then I say introduce a little chaos.

But here comes the ironic part.
Here I am, the writer, going on and on about living with purpose,
Yet I'm not even sure what mine is.
But I will never, ever, be able to find out what my purpose is if I just sit here and wait.
I'm going to keep searching.
What about you?

I'm out of words.

If in any way I hurt you,
I'm sorry.

If in any way I wasted your time somehow,
I'm sorry.

If I could've done more but didn't,
forgive me.

I just want you to know, everything I said, when I said it,
I meant it.
Every word.
Maybe we were destined to go our separate ways.
Maybe everything that we wanted just wasn't meant to be.

But with everything said and done,
all I want to say is,

Thank you.

You made life seem brighter.
Like there was still something worth waking up everyday for.

So once again,
Thanks.
For everything.